Monday 25 March 2013

Photo a day - March 2013



Images from the everyday.

"These Moments Existed"
The Wikipedia definition of "ambivalence" states that it is, "a state of having simultaneous, conflicting feelings toward a person or thing.[1] Stated another way, ambivalence is the experience of having thoughts and/or emotions of both positive and negative valence toward someone or something... The term [can refer] to situations where "mixed feelings" of a more general sort are experienced, or where a person experiences uncertainty or indecisiveness concerning something... Ambivalence is experienced as psychologically unpleasant when the positive and negative aspects of a subject are both present in a person's mind at the same time. This state can lead to avoidance or procrastination, or to deliberate attempts to resolve the ambivalence." 

This is me - this is my life. Stumbling from one moment to the other... no real sense of how I feel about one thing or another. Just participating in the things I like and am passionate about as much as possible, and to the best of my ability. Like the beginnings of this project. As much as I would like to resolve my ambivalence toward documenting my everyday, I am not sure this is going to happen.



In fact, the more I think about it, the more confused I become. Or is it that I am overwhelmed, rather than conflicted? Or perhaps it's more that I like this ambivalent state I am in? Keeps me guessing. Given that this project aims to "explore everyday moments with an air of ambivalence and melancholy", I am not sure that I am looking for a means to dissolve this place I am in. Moreover, I wouldn't know where to begin. I barely know how to sort out my ambivalence towards this project, let alone life.